Thursday, 23 May 2013

change for the better or the worse ..?

ok so I haven't posted a blog in a while. Alot has happened since my last blog and if I remember rightly it was rather an emotional and very deep blog.

well I can't say I'm over that scene completely as that would be a lie. I can't say that I will definitely get over that scene either as it hit me hard, but, I am more than ok at the moment.

now you all know my life in regards to relationships wise is always rocky always a drama and 9 times out of ten I let this guy back into my life one way or another.

well yes I suppose I kinda have. now I don't need the lectures of are you am idiot a mug, insecure etc etc the answer is maybe a mug but most definitely not insecure. just a young women with mad feelings for her first love.

So you see, I can't forget what's happened but we can try and move on from it one way or another.
the past 2 weeks have been strange but quite amazing. there's been no arguments no upset, and his been spending good quality time with me and his son. (Like he should be) we've talked about things been quite honest with each other and it seems so far to be working. 

now I'm not asking for your judgement on my decisions on my life but I would like to know if any of you have been in a situation like mine? have you had to deal with another girl having your mans kid? if so how did you get through it? if you got through it? did it break you? or make you stronger.

the not knowing how things are going to turn out come August when this kid arrives is killing me. not to mention the fact she's having his first daughter something me and him always talked about wanting together. Proper killer to my heart.

well will keep you posted, no doubt there will be some sort of drama happening in my life lol always is :)

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